Bittersweet

Today we had court, I really dislike these days, this was the 4th court hearing I've been to with our current kiddos and each one is equally draining. Let me 1st say that I wholeheartedly believe that the best place for kids to be is with their bio parents IF it's a safe place. Visits will be increased in time and be unsupervised. Scary? Yes, however if reunification is going to happen I NEED to know that the kids will be safe, loved, feed and not neglected. I can't say that right now when everything is supervised so as scary as it is it will be good. If the kids go home I need to know in my heart and mind that they will be OK and I guess the only way that will happen is by proof. After court I decided I really had 2 choices. I could fight this and send the kids home wondering if they're OK or I could help the parents parent and know they'll be OK. 2nd option seems easier! I've also come to the conclusion that no matter what these 2 are God's children and He loves them more than any of us ever could. He knows what they need and He knows whats best. Period. So I will continue to show them what a family feels and looks like and leave the rest up to the Lord.

Prasie the Lord, 1 less Orphan!!

This family has been through more than enough, they have truely inspired me as I've followed their journey with a love and trust in the Lord and His plan that never wavered and today God showed up in Russia, in the Supreme Court and defeated satan! GREGORY KIRILL DAVIS is coming home to a family....a mom and dad! Praise the Lord

If only for a little while

One never knows the plans God has for us. After these 2 kiddos came into our home, our lives to me seemed flipped upside down, it was not an easy transition but God brought us through and as I reflect back God knew exactly what He was doing. These 2 have repeatedly taught me what life is all about and how stopping to smell the flowers is so important, no matter how "busy" we make our lives.

What do you think? If a man has a hundred sheep and one of them has gone astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine on the mountains and go in search of the one that went astray? And if he finds it, truly, I say to you, he rejoices over it more than over the ninety-nine that never went astray. So it is not the will of my Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones should perish.
(Matthew 18:12-14 ESV)

In a Nutshell

Welcome Back!

I have decided that my personal satisfaction to even the score with the agency we were with during our International journey to find our daughter is not worth what it could cost so many other families and even worse the children that still wait for them. We believe we were lied to, mislead, and may have even been involved in some unethical practices as far as we were told by a legal representative yet we trust that this is still ALL part of the Lord's plan so we are closing the chapter on Russia and the agency and moving forward. Some days its hard and my human side would love to go to every adoption board on the net and trash their name but again would it be worth the small amount of satisfaction I would get? I don't believe so. There are tons of details I could share and tons of unanswered questions but we are choosing to let it go and continue to believe God has something bigger and better in store for our family.

The question to me used to always be "have you heard anything? when will you travel?" now the question is "what's next?" You have no idea how I'd love to know that answer myself but I don't. All I do know is that I'm going to continue to follow the Lord and as I follow I will allow Him to use me and my life in any way He feels.

We still have Gavin and Jazmine in our home, we moved all our adoption paperwork to a different agency and plan to pursue a domestic adoption of an infant girl. See how I said "plan" that's because of all I've learnt in the past 3 years its that my plan doesn't really matter and I'm becoming more and more OK with that.