In a Nutshell

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I have decided that my personal satisfaction to even the score with the agency we were with during our International journey to find our daughter is not worth what it could cost so many other families and even worse the children that still wait for them. We believe we were lied to, mislead, and may have even been involved in some unethical practices as far as we were told by a legal representative yet we trust that this is still ALL part of the Lord's plan so we are closing the chapter on Russia and the agency and moving forward. Some days its hard and my human side would love to go to every adoption board on the net and trash their name but again would it be worth the small amount of satisfaction I would get? I don't believe so. There are tons of details I could share and tons of unanswered questions but we are choosing to let it go and continue to believe God has something bigger and better in store for our family.

The question to me used to always be "have you heard anything? when will you travel?" now the question is "what's next?" You have no idea how I'd love to know that answer myself but I don't. All I do know is that I'm going to continue to follow the Lord and as I follow I will allow Him to use me and my life in any way He feels.

We still have Gavin and Jazmine in our home, we moved all our adoption paperwork to a different agency and plan to pursue a domestic adoption of an infant girl. See how I said "plan" that's because of all I've learnt in the past 3 years its that my plan doesn't really matter and I'm becoming more and more OK with that.