A Orphan's Prayer

I am waiting…somewhere far, far away…on the other side of the world.
I may not know who you are or what you look like.
But somehow, deep in my heart, I know you are out there.
That one day you will come and find me.

It's a long journey, and it takes a lot of time.
I wish it could be easier.
But I know that the ones who come for me will not count the cost.
They will only see the joy of finding me.

For now I abide in the fields of the fatherless.
Day by day wondering, "Why was I born here and not somewhere else?"
Asking, "Why couldn't my life have been different?"
It is so lonely…

Even though I am surrounded by hundreds of other children,
I know that something is missing.
I know in my heart I need a place to call home.

My arms long to be wrapped in a father's embrace…
I long to be saved by a mother's love.
Gazing out the orphanage window, I offer a prayer of hope,
"Oh God, please help them come quickly."

Even as I lay in the darkness each night somehow I feel assured.
That no matter how lost I appear I am not alone.
Holy hands guard my steps; sacred fingers wipe my tears…
Touching my lonely heart.

The one who made me,
The God who knew me before I was born,
Hears me every time I call.
He whispers His promises in my ear.
I listen with hope to His voice.

But what I worry about most is that no one wants to look for me.
The fields are vast, and there are so many scattered all over the earth.
I wonder how one little child, so lost, can be found.
Yet He calms my heart and assures me that He will find you.
That He will make sure you hear His voice clearly.
He has promised me that He will make a way through the fields.
That He will personally cut a path, and lead you right to my orphanage door.

My prayer is…
When He speaks, please don't forget to listen.
When He calls, don't be too afraid to go.
For I am waiting…somewhere far, far away.

A few things for sale

I was listing some things on ebay and craigslist today and I thought I'd offer these items to you before I list them. If anyone is interested let me know otherwise I'm going to list them. I've been making some decent extra money from ebay and craigslist so now I'm on a mission to find things of value we don't use :0)

1) Portable DVD players. They can watch both watch different movies, each screen has a remote and 2 wireless headsets and 9 in. screens.

I know they work because Jamie and I were just sitting in the vehicle watching Elf...that's the movie that was left in them hehe. We're asking $100.00 obo.




2) Pro Form 530x Treadmill. It's probably 6 yrs old but used mostly to set things on! It got used the most right after the new year....you know New Years resolutions just never stayed committed. It inclines, has 10 speeds, calculates heart rate and calories burned, folds up for easy storage. Asking 300.00 obo.....ipod not included HaHa!



I would be willing to ship the DVD set.

One step closer...finger prints for I600A complete

Wanna come play?

I feel I am exceptionally blessed to have a hubby like I do and our boys and future children are blessed to have such a wonderful dad. In my opinion not too many men would leave early on a Sat. morning to go 70 miles to tear down a play set, bring it home and set it back up but mine did. He's such a trooper and he very seldom complains! It's been a long time since we had little children things around our home and I'll admit it we're both having a lot of fun with it. The people we got the play set from where gifts from God....they also gave us a potty step and a like new very nice car seat. It's so fun to watch as God puts such wonderful people in our lives.

The guys had fun and I know at least 2 of them actually went down the slide and now that it's set up in our backyard I'm shocked at how much our boys use it. Yesterday Jamie was napping and I heard Tristan ask Austin if he wanted to go outside so I looked out the window and sure enough they we're sitting in the fort talking :) They made me so proud. I joined them with the Sunday paper and the bench that I thought was a waste actually is going to be really handy. My mom came over last night and we both sat on it while the boys swung.











We have our appt at USCIS for finger printing tomorrow and since Jamie will be taking 1/2 day off we're also going to pick up a few items for our Nutritional Club. The plumbers started today and are waiting for the sinks...I ordered them from ebay because the plumber's price for sinks almost knocked me off my chair. I've been busy on craigslist trying to find a refrigerator and microwave. We trying to get all used low cost items to get us started, we want to be duplicatible for our down line and buying the nicest most expensive is not duplicatable for most average people. We want people to believe they could also live the dream of owning their own business while changing the health of people all around them. We would love to help others open their own Nutritional Clubs as well so if your dream is to work for yourself with no more lay offs I'm more than willing to help.

We still have a goal of having our Grand Opening Aug 15th if not before. We are actually way ahead of schedule because we weren't suppose to get into our place before July 15th. A friend called today and she said maybe things are moving fast so we can get open and running because God has our children ready. God is so smart!

I Pray You Enough...

Do you ever read something for the 1st time and it's good but it just don't "sink in" or "hit home" and then later you read it again and it's like Ahhhh I get it. That's what happened to me....I got this through email from my Aunt Carol yesterday and when I read it I was like yep that's really good and on with life I went, today I got the same email from my one and only sister Gina so I read it again and something different came from it for me. It was a greater appreciation for the people I have in my life that I love and that love me but more than that it's prayer and I think that's why it sorts kinda me different to day. I've been struggling the last week trying to find the balance, from working full time from home to starting a Nutritional Club away from home to family time to daily life and prayer. Sad to say the last yet most important one is the one that seems to get more and more neglected....prayer! I know I need my alone time with God and right now I'm not getting that so please pray me enough time to spend at least 15 - 20 mins in prayer everyday and I will pray you enough.

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Recently, I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure. Standing near the security gate, they hugged, and the mother said, 'I love you, and I pray you enough.'

The daughter replied, 'Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I pray you enough, too, Mom.'

They kissed, and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there, I could see she wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy, but she welcomed me in by asking, 'Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?'

Yes, I have,' I replied. 'Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?'

'Well...I'm not as young as I once was, she lives so far away & has her own busy life. I have some challenges ahead, and the reality is - her next trip back will be for my funeral,' she said.

'When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I pray you enough.' May I ask what that means?'

She began to smile. 'That's a prayer that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone.' She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail, and she smiled even more. 'When we said, 'I pray you enough,' we wanted the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them.'

Then, turning toward me, she shared the following as if she were reciting it from memory.

I pray you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear.

I pray you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.

I pray you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.

I pray you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.

I pray you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I pray you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I pray you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.

Then, she began to cry, and walked away.

They say, it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but an entire life to forget them.

To all my friends and loved ones,
I PRAY YOU ENOUGH.......

3 Part Post

It feels like forever since I posted and so much has happened so this will be long. I'm going to cover updates on Family, Business, and Adoption. Family first...We decided to spent the 4th of July weeeknd by my sister and her family in MO. This was kinda 2 part because we left on Thursday morning since Jamie got Friday off, spent the night at my sisters and early Friday morning Jamie and I headed to Topeka KS to train in a Nutritional Club. The boys spent the day with Gina and her 2 kids. On Saturday Gina, Ava (Gina's daughter) and I hung out at home in the morning and then headed out to do some shopping. The guys all went fishing. We got called once to come pick up the 2 youngest but then the fish started biting so they decided to stay. Saturday night we grilled out and did fireworks, I think the adults had more fun with this than the kids. Ok I have to tell you....I proved to myself that I can still flip upside down on monkey bars! haha Jamie said it didnt look very graceful and the kids laughed. He got a picture half way through but if I posted that I'd never be able to show my face again. Sunday we got up for church, had brunch at Hy Vee and headed home. I loved the table and chairs that Heather had in her club so we stopped at Nebraska Furniture Mart on the way home it pick 2 up. Jamie thinks we should plan the 4th of July at the Spiller's every year. Little surprise for you sissy I forgot to tell you that! haha I was just looking thru the pics and I forgot about the go cart. That was a blast. It was an awesome weekend and here's the proof.

This is by far NOT my best picture but who cares we we're having so much fun! My sister and the kids doing fireworks. I think my sister was actually making sure no one took her snakes. You know those little black thingy you light up and they grow...she loves them hehe

We were able to get in the building tonight where we will be opening our Nutritional Club. We got cabinets set and the counter top is setting on the front counter however Jamie is going to cut the counter top and raise some of it. The table against the wall is only there to give us an idea of space because the fridge will be there. After the cabinets are screwed together and to the floor we also have to get the plumber in there to hook up sinks and drains. Jamie is going to tile the floor in our work space to be in code with the health dept because it needs to be hard surface. We weren't going to paint but after everything is moved out it could use a fresh coat. iwireless was previously there and they had a lot of stuff hanging on the walls. Our outside sign is being made. Everything is moving along great...better than planned...our original plan was to start setting cabinets July 15th. We planned to open August 1st but mid August is looking closer. I took this month off to get our Club running. I love the freedom, for almost 2 yrs I worked 13+ hour days with only Sunday off. I'm doing things around the house I've neglected, getting things lined up at the Club and spending time with family.



Adoption....Big News...we're waiting! We are so busy right now the wait don't even bother us and to be honest we're hoping to get the Club opened and running so that when we leave for Russia someone can run it and we won't have to close. I talked to W. today and she said the summer months are slow and picks back up around Sept. I told her that was good, gives us time and she said well we never know about that referrals still come in. God knows what He's doing so whatever happens is done by His will and will work out!

Awhile back I posted that we thought we found a swing set we wanted, that ended up not working but we bought another one. We are moving it home this Sat and I will post pictures of the process. My super duper friend Becky emailed me this picture when I told her we bought one that we needed to move. She knows me pretty well, if this was the only option I probably would try it!

1 full week of fundraising = 3 nights = $553.00 ~ God is moving!!